My senior is leaving at the end of this month. I need alot of SUPERWOMAN POWER PILLS. Where can I get them har?

My stomach kept making loud and funny noises. So awkward! I was scared the rest might misunderstood as me farting. =( Bad tummy. I should see the doc soon. (Just in case, u noe?)

SHOULD. But...

Recently, I've been thinking alot about her. Maybe it's the reminders that triggered it. Or maybe the door to this part has unlocked itself silently. I'll always bear in mind that nothing I do, can change reality. Nevertheless, the helplessness is still around.

Grateful to Ah Boy for giving me the strength at that critical moment. Nothing much changed. But someone is there. Ah Boy is right there, beside me. =)

I miss eating my fav food-CRABS!!! Not alot of ppl ard me likes to eat or can eat crabs. =( One of my greatest enjoyments in life which I can hardly find any khaki/companion for. Heard that there is XO crab. I shall study super duperly hard so that I can EARN my XO crab treat from someone special. =D *broad smile*

Looking forward to mid-june! I swear I'm gonna play very hard then.

Good luck to all who is having exams now. ^-^ Jia you!!

I AM SO JEALOUS!

She called him 'my idol' and posted his pic on her blog! Argh~ I knew that he would attract special attention but never did I expect such a reaction from myself. *slap* He is MY hero! Mine and my. Hahaha..

Big reaction needs some cooling down. Haha..initially I wanted to put up her blog link here. But that post entry is quite at the bottom so it's abit meaningless.

Today a GUY frd was late for more than 1 hour. 1.5hr to be exact. Moi? 0.5hr late. Hahaha..ok la. Retribution. So dun always do bad things to ppl la. What goes ard, comes ard. >.<

Just the other day, was abit...ARGH!!! My student said tis to me, 'Your eyes very big..abit like housefly.' HOUSEFLY?? U mean that disgusting thing which disturbs our food..tHAt HOUSEFLY??? My goodness gawd! Why cant she compare it to something like a dOLL? Haiz! First time heard that I look like an insect called HOUSEFLY. May God bless me that it'll be the last time.

Ah boy's classmates called him a LEGEND. Proud of him! :D

Had a terrible and weird nightmare last night. In the past, I dreamt of my cousins and auntie getting pregnant. Last night..was the worst of the worst! Dreamt my galfrd got molested by this pervert stranger. Of cos I went up to him and slapped him. Gosh! Stupid nightmare.

I believe, open honesty and communication is important in all kinds of relationship. Some things just cant stuff it at the back of your mind and pretend it didnt happen before. If you dont wan ur partner to hide anything from you, then you shouldnt do it too. Worrying abt your partner's reaction is another matter. How you 2 solve it will either help both of you to grow closer or to push apart. Sometimes, I need an extra strength.

Superrrrrr tired! Eyes closing soon. Exams kept haunting me. :(

Love tis pic! :D

The time is 1.20AM! Good Morning =D

While waiting for hair to dry and for my tummy to feel better.. :( Been feelin' uncomfy since 4hours ago.

Sth which I find it hard to comprehend. Why do some people esp gals, make it a habit to wash hair only two-three times a WEEK? Once in a blue moon if it's just skipping one or two days, I'd think it's rather acceptable WITH the excuse of cold weather/not feeling well/lazy. To make it a habit to skip so many days of washing..eeeEW! The person will most likely feel itchy/get dandruff/have oily hair/become smelly. Imagine my shock when I heard from someone that her frd only washes ONCE A WEEK...but if that frd is poor or has a good reason like medical problem, probably understandable. Btw, my hair is washed daily. :)

A reliable source shared with me that someONE's mammy is not her mammy (real). Although someONE and I arent very close, nonetheless, a tinge of betrayal of trust crept inside me. If even frds cant be honest with such important info, then I question the meaning of true friendship. If respect and privacy is wanted, someONE could say 'Sorry, I dont wish to talk abt this.' Or maybe it's easier to put things simpler and not having to go thru the trouble of explaining. It's hard to understand and accept if you're just guessing without the truth/facts. Of course, the source might turn out to be inaccurate and misunderstanding wld occur. But, it boils down to pure guessing and no 100% concrete proof. Which explains why someONE is called, someONE.

Seems like I am trying to understand abt alot of things? Well, the day that I would not (try to understand) is the day that I would not give ANY care and even if 10 cows try to pull me back to understand the people/event, it's useless. Haha! Exaggerated~

My cousin from Australia is coming here soon with his NEW gf. Haha~ I was hoping to see his bro tho. Never seen his bro b4. Besides, he looks better looking than the cousin that is coming over. =P Hmm..wonder if he'll brg my fav almond choc 4 me. Er..I mean, us. Haha!! :)

Naggy lecturer who nags the SAME THING week after week. Hee..and he says the MUSHIEST LINE that any teacher will say to his class.- 'I'm one of the few men in your lives that cares 4 you mah...' Every time I hear this, the hair on my arms will do some exercise; stand. No kidding. Nevertheless, I think that he's a very thoughtful and caring man. Lucky for his wife and daughter!! Rare species..just like DoDo bird. Haha~

Gawd! 2.01AM ALREADY!! (took me 41mins to blog these and sort out my thoughts) LOL. Before I say goodnite, share sth...

Check out my shiny leg and 'auntie-ish hair'. Photographer asked me to pose..maybe that's why didnt look very natural. Check out the baby fats on my cheeks. Hahaha..

GOOD NITE! =D

LOL!! Didnt log in for more than 2 weeks and I nearly forget my email and password to blog. HAHAH!!

Honestly, I dont have a rough idea of what to blog about. Hmm..ok let me think of something to share.

My student confessed to me recently that she is thinking of changing school. Because her classmates outcast and teased her. Poor girl! I told her to hang on and be strong.

Just saw Ah Boy and 4 hours later, I was already missing him =( Exams are coming and that means, CONCENTRATION! Aiyo..I need alot of it. Plus good luck, of cos.

I want to get a bag for putting my books/notes and shoes to wear ANYWHERE. My current shoe might not last me for a long time and I need to start finding now. Because I'll always have difficulty in picking a nice and pretty and suitable bag AND shoes for myself. These are the accessories which I hate too. Haha..really. I rather shop for hair accessories or clothes or DRESSES.

Thinking of buying a formal wear for someone. But I dont know where to buy..and I hope it wont be too expensive la. =P Something affordable.

Wah..the crappiest blog entry!

Lead a meaningful, contented and fulfilling life.

Are you leading this kind of life now? I am planning to. It would be meaningful when I do something which will help either the people around me or charity work and to cheer, encourage and motivate my loved ones. Contented only when I have the positive mindset to accept whateva I own and not asking for more than is required. Lastly, to plan and aim for my goals and realizing my dreams one by one. (even if it turns out to be unsuccessful)

Last Wed, sth happened at home and I was utterly upset. This is my 2nd BIG UPSET of this year 2008. Hopefully it will be the last one. Seeking comfort from my ah boy is such a wonderful thing! Although sometimes I wish I could be more independent and in better control of my emotions, nevertheless, I am grateful that he is here by my side. The day after that fateful day, I joined him and his frds (also my frds now) to celeb one of their birthdays! I was pleasantly surprised when he said the flower is for me, to cheer me up. =) Woah! It is a very sweet thing especially when he is not the sort of guy who will get gift(s) to cheer up someone. He has his own ways of cheering people.

I did a 'survey' on my current happiness level. Turned out that the surveyee (the person who replied to the survey) thought that I am a rather unhappy person-unhappy about almost everything except bf. Haha! Maybe this is a large part of Contentment category that I have to fill up!!

By the way, read the news abt Baby Jolene losing her parents and bro and grandma? She's such a poor thing. My heart goes out to her. Couldnt help crying for her when I read about the news. Hope that she will have a better life ahead and grow up to be a strong strong lady! =)



Searching for my authentic happiness...

Often, I'll ask myself, 'Am I doing this for the sake of doing or for the sake of someone else OR myself?' A good example is blogging. From now onwards, I'll blog for myself (priority) and to those whom are close to me.

Reading Rn's blog, I'm really happy for her good results and perseverance to reaching her final goal. AB is working so hard. He is practically living his life; he survives to live. Whereas a lot of people chooses to live to survive; eat food so as to survive (get it?). The question- what about myself? If I have a report book right now, what grades/comments would I see in each category? The achievements in my life, the improvements and potentials, the awareness of weakness, etc. What about YOU? Would you score an overall A-Star+ (highest of the highest grading) or a borderline C? Or, lolx..a big fat F?!

A friend/ex-classmate once said, 'Life without any goal(s) is both boring and meaningless.' I raised both my arms in agreement. Not in the literal sense, of cos. But having goals do not mean that the above quote does not apply. Your life adds value or become more meaningful when you really take the effort to plan and achieve your goals. Whether you reach the destination or not, it's another matter. To procrastinate is to postponing your future sweetness/returns and increasing your bitterness at the same time.

Presently, I'm rather unhappy. I dont agree with what my senior and bosses think/say. I wont force myself. But I'll learn to see things in a different light and to manage my own emotions well. Because there is no way I can do those for them. There is a chinese saying, 'Shan bu zhuan, lu zhuan.' Let me improvise on the phrase- if the mountains dont bend, the roads will do it..if the roads dont, let me do it.

81 days to exams! Give me a break! C'mon~

Mama said SKY OF LOVE the movie is very nice. Innocent kind of love which is hard to find in these days.

Mama's tutor had been nagging Mama and her classmates to study for their upcoming exams. 90+ days!!! OMG~ Pray for Mama!

I think Mama has become a bad girl. Her bad habits has increased and she is not as innocent (purity of mental + attitude) as previously. Really hope Mama can change for the better.

Uncle AB is working so hard for his future. What abt Mama? Will she aid or drag down?

Mama! Pretty huh? =P Abit skinny tho..

Uncle AB says the fishy are stupid. Kept nibbling on his fingers as tho it's fish food for them. Muahaha..but the fishy very cute! Like Mama's ex-hamsters- HamHam and Burger.

*slurp* Mama went to East Coast (that famous J restaurant) to eat CRABS and all. YUMMY!! Not enough tho..another round of crabs pretty pls!!!

Mama's cute nephews!